My Life Story

I realized that I have not written in awhile. So to update you I am now married and have been for a year and two months. It has been an amazing year filled with moments of great joy and sometimes frustration. The great thing of marriage is you learn to compromise and you learn what things really matter to you.
I am in my last year at the seminary and am loving my classes. I feel as if I am finally falling into place and understanding better the materials of the classes. Next year I start at the University of Kentucky where I will pursue my Master's in Social work. I am getting to the point where I am ready to be working instead of studying..almost.
Also we bought a house and its really cute and affordable. Hoping to make a profit so that we have money for a month long trip to Europe and for a down payment on a house. Well i would right more, but seeing as how I am taking thirteen credit hours I need to get back to readin Sinai and Zion.

As I work on m final assignments of the semester, I can't help but look back at how far I have come this past year. I moved to a different state leaving behind the man I love, my family and my friends. I started graduate school which turned out to be much more rigourous than I had imagined. Due to these changes I freaked out in the middle of my first semester and broke up with Bobby. I look back now and realize that the breakup was not because I did not love him anymore or because I did not want to marry him, it was my strange way of dealing with all the changes in my life (some influence from my mom). Now that I have spent close to a full year away from everything I have known and loved I come away a stronger person who values things she might have otherwise taken for granted. Not making it any easier was my inability to connect with fellow students. I found that we mostly said hello in passing, but never anything more. I really only made one good friend by the name of Peter. I believe we became friends because we were both in the same boat so to speak. He also being engaged and in a long distance relationship allowed us to bond in ways I could not with other people. I look forward to next year sharing the joys of being married with him and having him over for dinner parties as we were unable to do such things last year. In trying to make friends this past year I felt as if I was in this limbo stage, where I was not yet married, yet not single. This meant that I did not fit in with either crowd.
Despite my struggles of the past year (I did not even mention the academic ones in detail) I come away from this experience grateful for all that I have and all that I have learned.

Humeur actuelle: accomplished
Musique actuelle: Stronger

Wow I have not written anything in ages. I am in my internship now and only weeks away from graduating from USF. Sad face cause I do not want to leave my fiance or my friends behind and the closer the date gets the scareder I get. Probably why I have not made a choice on where I want to go to school next. I will probably go to Texas since it is most like Florida and its warm and Bobby could easily (I hope) get an ac tech job in Texas. I mean it's like a freaking desert out there people have to need ac's. Oh that reminds me in case you did not know I am now engaged to the man of my dreams. It happened over spring break while in Bahamas. it was extremely romantic and totally unexpected, despite a couple of people trying to give it away. I am so excited I even went dress shopping and found an absolutly gorgeous gown. Bobby likes to say that the wedding fever has hit me now that we are engaged. All of our parents think we should wait till I am done with school before we get married. I just don't see the point in waiting three years, I love him why should not I marry him now!
Bahamas was a blast, i did not get to see the gardens or my forts or the staircase, but I guess that just gives me a reason to go back. I did get to see alot of other cool things, the jitney probably being my favorite for some reason. Well I really have to start the homework that I have been dreading and putting off for days now. I know, I know, bad me. I'll try to write more later when i have a chance.

Humeur actuelle: enthralled
Musique actuelle: Brown skin girl-bahamas song

I went to Duke before going home for the holidays. I feel that I will not be attending Duke next year. This made me very disappointed and sad. It has always been my dream, (well since third grade) to go to Duke. at first I wanted to go for medical school, but that def changed. I was excited when I realized that I could still go to Duke with my new career choice. After visiting though I came to realize that Duke was not the school for me. While the buildings themselves were absolutly gorgeous I had a hard time picturing myself among the students. I felt as if I would not belong wearing my jeans to class everyday instead of a suit. take for instance when they were handing out popcorn and you had to ask for it rather then them handing it to you (like they do at USF, GO BULLS!!).
Then I go home only to find that my brother and sister don't want me there and are being complete pains in the arsses. So I went home early than intended. The only reason I wish I has stayed at home would have been to wish my mom and dad a happy anniversary in person and because I did not get to spend that much time with my mom one on one. I still have Christmas which Bobby and I need to figure out how we plan on splitting that time. Who knows. We will eventually figure it out.

So I still need to finish up my Christmas shopping. IT is so weird still having to go shopping after Thanksgiving. I am usually always done with Christmas shopping by now. I love shopping and Christelle i am not a lazy lazy bum. Oh and no more looking at the ring cause you so can not wear it before us!!!

Humeur actuelle: ecstatic
Musique actuelle: no music in my head today

Nicole should be coming up this weekend which I am thrilled about! Finally had the opportunity to go to Universal. It was fun. Did not get to go on all the rides I wanted to, but maybe someday I will be able to go back. Doubt it. Went to the doctor and everything is okay. Only went cause Bobby insisted. He was worried about my health. Good thing I am fine. My next couple of weekends are going to be extremely busy. Nic comes this weekend and then I go to NC. and somewhere in between all of this I am supposed to write two count them two five to eight page papers that i have not even started. One of them I don't have a clue how to start it. so watch out cause I am gonna be stressed out like those cats on those cards.

Humeur actuelle: blah

Work has ended. No more money. This part makes me sad. I am going to see a play tonight with Bobby's brother in it. I am going with his family. His family is weirdly starting to feel like a second family to me. Probably cause I am usually with them during family functions, such as the play, birthdays, and Vegas. Its a new feeling for me. This feeling of I should go to the play cause it is almost like he his my brother and I know it is important to him.Unfortunatly this means no hockey game for me. I know I know. I was looking forward to it, but there will be more games. I just realized that i am the biggest dumbass in the world. I told Nic not to come up the weekend before her birthday because I would be in NC right. SO she would come up the weekend after her birthday. I am such a dumbass. I am going to be in NC the weekend she comes up. Which means I will not get to see my old roomie, wife, and my best friend. I am so sad and pissed off at myself right now that you have no idea. I was so looking forward to seeing her and now I won't be able to. I guess sometime you have to pay a high price for your stupidity. I was gonna write about yesterday, but I am not feeling it anymore. maybe i will write later.

Humeur actuelle: enraged
Musique actuelle: Welcome to My life

Second week of work went pretty well. I really liked the spot I had for the whole weekend. It got alot of great scares plus I get to see the fabulous Christelle. I am now permanently placed there. Yeah!! All I have done is homework, school, work, sleep, hang with the wives. Oh that reminds me I might be going to Founder's Day, but sadly without my boyfriend. His parents will be there so I will be able to talk to them. Linda REALLY wants me to go because she would not know anyone there. I can understand that, that is why I wanted one of the wives to go to Formal. I was quite relieved to have someone I know there. It would not have been the same without a wife there. there is a possibilty that I might be Ben's or Rick's date, but who knows. Just feels kinda weird especially since his parents will be there and see me with another guy.!!! Buahahahaha Maybe his mom will even accuse me of cheating. Not much else has happened and I am finally getting tired so good night.

Humeur actuelle: satisfied
Musique actuelle: Paranoia-Green Day

Started work this past weekend. The first night was not much fun, but the second night at the house Mortuary was a blast. Constant screaming from being scared is a great trhill. I will be very tired and busy the next couple of weekends. At least I am getting paid and pretty darn well. Everything between Bobby and I is going well. Happy to say. Still no ring though, j/k. Christelle robbed a musuem this weekend, but shhh don't tell anybody! Oh and she will not stop talking about these things called jalapeno poppers. She just keeps talking and talking and talking about them. that's okay I can understand why. Linda wants a massage she is nuts if she thinks she is getting one from me.

Musique actuelle: Sunglasses at Night-Corey Hart

Here's my update: Football game was fun. I went out to eat with my boyfriend and then chilled back at his place. tried desperatly to convince Linda to come back to the house instead of going with Hockey players. She did not listen and later wanted to go home so she could brush her teeth. Brush her teeth! Too funny. Gotta love her. Tomorrow is seven months for my bf and I. I am excited bc I have never really wanted a relationship to work like I want his and mine too. He made me mad today. I told him something and he blew it off. He was rude about it. Oh well going to talk to him about it now. oh and he has something planned for tomorrow to celebrate and he will not tell me what it is.

Musique actuelle: System of A Down

Hey,
I am back from Las Vegas otherwise known as Sin City. I had a great time. I got to hang with Bobby's family and I got to see the Strip. I was def ready to be home after a couple of days though. It was a great trip though!! really tired and lots of homework so I will write much more later.

Humeur actuelle: exhausted
Musique actuelle: I Got You Babe--Sonny and Cher

I move back in tomorrow! Silly swan left most if not all of her packing to the day before. tehehe. Not me. I was packed weeks ago. I get to see my wife and my bf tomorrow. Wahta an awesome day it will be, plus were going shopping. yeah jumping right into old habits is the best way to start off the school year. Woo Hoo!

Humeur actuelle: ecstatic

I got my haircut today. I took off more than originally planned. It looks cute and feels really airy. Now comes learning how to style my new hairstyle. Gotta go. only five more days.

Humeur actuelle: still anxious

I can't wait till Wednesday. I move back in to the dorms. I will get to once again spend a fabulous year of school with Christelle and Linda. Sadly no Nicole as my roommate. I am worried about having a new roommate. there is no way she will ever be a better roommate then my beloved roommate of last year, Nicole aka Jessica Rabbit. I will also be reunited (funny choice of word) with my boyfriend! We have been going out for six months. My longest relationship and his too. Well funny story but its actually been seven months. I might be going to Las Vegas with him. Meet lots of his family members and I will get to mark one more city off of my list of cities to see. I miss being in Tampa and just being able to hang out with my friends. I miss just being able to say lets go to the mall or lets rent a movie. Hence the can't wait till next week. Only six more days. Woo hoo!!

Humeur actuelle: anxious

Yesterday started out pretty normal.I woke up, brushed my teeth and then cleaned the kitchen. I then sat down to do my usual of watching tv and reading. I was waiting for the UPS or FedEx man to knock on my door, with the surprise gift from my bf. When i heard a door shut I went to the window and looked out and who did I see! That's right my surprise was my boyfriend coming to visit me for the day. We chilled at my place for a little while and then we went out to eat at Applebee's. We then went to Target cause I had a gift card. He wanted to see a movie, I really really did not want to see a movie. We took my brother and sister to the pool. We had a blast playing some water games. I love that he gets along with my brother and sister. I hated saying goodbye. We talked about what our plans are for Christmas and Thanksgiving. How we could split the time between our families. He had an actual plan! I loved the surprise. He wants to get married this summer. Asked me if I had thought about a date.

Anyways, I miss being in school. I am not bored everyday but there are def days it gets real boring here. I miss the wives too. Ace left me the funniest message on my phone the other day. I loved it. Missing Ace a bunch. Cant wait till we are back together.

Humeur actuelle: loved
Musique actuelle: Gorillaz-Feel Good Inc.

My birthday was one of the best ever!! People say turning twenty is insignificant, but I loved my twentieth birthday. I will start with when it turned midnight! I was on the phone with Bobby when it was midnight, and Christelle was calling me so she could talk. She beat him to saying Happy Birthday. She sang to me and used my nickname and then her away message all day said happy birthday to me!! Then Linda came by while she was on duty and she had everyone in the hall sing to me. I wake up the next day and am greeted with Judy tellin me happy birthday and my mom. Then I had a sweet message from Simeon telline me happy birthday. Later in the day I had messages from Josh, James, Alexis, and Melissa telling me happy birthday! People changed my wall on facebook to say happy b'day. My whole entire class sang to me. Ben took me out to lunch, we went to Bennigans. It was yummy.
When he picked me up Bobby was there and he had the card for me from the girls, They being the best friends a girl could have bought me a chance to swim with dolphins!! A life long dream of mine. then Bobby took me out to dinner and we went to Olive Garden. They sang to me for my bday. first time ever for me at a resturant. then we went back to his place and he had bought me 30 roses and a picture from formal in a frame. I had one of the best birthdaysever!!!! Thanks to all who made it so great!!

Humeur actuelle: touched
Musique actuelle: Happy Birthday song

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